Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 195 (Last weigh-in 4/18/13)
Total weight loss: 25 pounds
Last week's dream focus: Pain management - don't do more than I can handle; keep trusting, having faith, being positive, and moving forward; thank God for His blessings and divine appointments and encounters; keep that chin up and SMILE!!!
What went well: I was able to get through every day without it completely impacting my life! The pain is always there, sometimes it's worse than others, but it never really goes away. I'm not allowing it to stop me from being happy, from being thankful, from living my life. I press on and I trust. I take each moment as it comes and I'm working on the challenge of having patience, especially in waiting to hear what it is and what's next. The load is pretty heavy so I'm asking God to carry it for me as I build endurance. He's pretty incredible!
On a topic unrelated to pain, one of my biggest, most exciting dreams of my life is beginning to manifest! I CAN HARDLY CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT ABOUT IT! It's in the very early stages, there are no certainties, and I don't know the timing of it (another test in patience), but I've never been closer to something I've envisioned - something I feel deep in my bones, in every fiber of my being.
This is one of those times I wish I could beg every one of you to pursue your dreams relentlessly and never give up. I want you to feel this kind of blissful anticipation that makes your heart overflow!
Challenges: Clearly, the pain is still my biggest challenge. I'm so thankful to God for delivering me from my previous work situation (completely disengaged, overwhelmed, and crying daily) just in time for me to adjust to the new one before this pain fired up. There's a big sigh of relief in my being when I envision how much different things could be for me right now had this position not been available and I had to endure more of the same. It seriously would not have been a good place to be. Like honestly. It couldn't be clearer to me how brilliant and incredible God is! The timing wasn't a mistake or a lucky coincidence. No sir. No ma'am. It was SO God! This really does help me to have more patience where I am now... I love reflection!
I'm trying hard not to dwell on the fact that it's been over three weeks since I've been to the gym or any kind of fitness class (my beloved Zumba, I totally miss you). The pain trumps my ability to move like I normally would so I have to be patient, rest, and relax. Could I go to the gym and walk slowly on the treadmill or lift some light weights? Possibly. I just fear hurting myself worse than I'm already hurting. So, for now, I have to be okay with this downtime.
This week's dream focus: Pain management - don't do more than I can handle; keep trusting, having faith, being positive, and moving forward; thank God for His blessings and divine appointments and encounters; keep that chin up and SMILE!!!